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I Only Said


The ”I Only Said“ innovative and original series of therapeutic novels, written for adolescents by Dr. Celia Banting, help teenagers cope with their problems so that they avoid the extreme act of suicide.

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I Only Said I Had No Choice

Shane's mom never gave him a choice; everything changed because she wanted it to. He tried to tell her but she wouldn't listen so he did the only thing he could think of to get her attention.

Issues addressed in this book:

Suicide Prevention

Anger management

Behavioral choices and their consequences

Personal responsibility

The biological aspects of feelings

Fight and flight response

The effects of anger upon cognitive processes and communication

The impact of aggressive non-verbal communication upon the self and others

Relaxation techniques

Adult co-dependence

Coping with abusive stepparents

Two-chair technique to explore empathy

Guided imagery techniques


Coping with blame and injustice

I Only Said "Yes" So That They'd Like Me

Melody feels totally alone, and hates the way she looks. She believes that she's bullied at school because she's not part of the in-crowd, and does the only thing she can think of to fit in.

Issues addressed in this book:

Suicide prevention

Social masks


In-groups and out-groups

Body Dysmorphic Disorder

Negative family dynamics

The role of marijuana upon behaviour

Coping with bullying

The emotional consequences of casual sex

Losing and regaining self-respect

Developing and maintaining friendships


Idnetifying talents and perceiving self-worth

Exploring attitudes and personal Frame of Reference

Self-esteem and affirmations

Guided imagery techniques

Discerning human attractiveness

I Only Said I Couldn't Cope

Adam blames himself for the death of the most important person in his life. He loses himself and all that maters to him as he is consumed by guilt.

Issues addressed in this book:

Suicide prevention

Grief, despair and depression

Rituals: The role of a funeral

The child as care-giver

A pathological need to please others

Negative family dynamics

Guilt, self-blame and forgiveness

Defence mechanisms (projection)

Adhering to negative life "decisions"

Reckless behaviors related to feelings

How shock impacts upon cognitive functioning

Guided imagery to explain disassociation

Cognitive development and the perception of reality

Exploration of the concept of life before life

Dr. Kubler Ross: The "grieving process"

(Denial,Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance

Consequences of negative rumination

The role of memories in the "grieving process"

Accepting the unfathomable

Finding peace

I Only Said I didn't Want You Because I Was Terrified

Hannah never meant for any of it to happen; she never meant to lie. But one lie led to another until she became trapped and all alone in her deceit. Every day she lived with the terror that someone would learn the truth.

Issues addressed in this book:

Sucicide prevention


Peer pressure

The consequences of drinking alcohol

Consensual sex

Vicarious living

Injustice and powerlessness

Signs and sypmtoms of pregnancy

Fetal development


The process of birth

Early neonatal care

Avoiding maternal and infant distress

Breast feeding

Problem solving skills - Reaching out to others

Reparing broken trust

Honest Communication


I Only Said I Was Telling The Truth

Ruby's life was perfect until her eleventh birthday. That day everything fell apart and her innocence and childhood were robbed from her forever.

Issues addressed in this book:

Suicide prevention



Isolation within the family

The "grooming process"

Manipulation and discrediting

Mis-placed guilt and self-disgust

The consequences of self-preservation

Coping with inter-agency involvement

Familial denial

Despair, hopelessness and terror

The benefits of the group process

(combats isolation, challenges self-blame, provides empathy, removes shame and gives support)

The impact of secxual abuse upon future relationships

Coping with flashbacks

The impact of hidden, covert family rules

Psycho-drama techniques to express anger and loss

Guided imagery to increase emotional safety and to liberate the self

Techniques to strengthen the ability to self-soothe and nurture the self

Eliciting a positive attitude towards a bright future

I Only Said I could Handle It, But I Was Wrong

Simon embarks upon the most challenging journey of his life- to give up drugs, understand why he takes them, and to reclaim his life.

Issues addressed in this book:

Why some teenagers become hooked on drugs

The influence of peers, the family and society

The influence of genes

The role of the brain and neurotransmitters

Dopamine deficiencies

The role of emotional and behavioral disorders

Short-term and long-term effects of:







Prescription medications


Repairing broken trust

Spiritual healing

Relapse prevention plans

Permissions and Injunctions

Human needs

Structuring time

Positive and negative stroking patterns

I Only Said It Didn't Hurt

Marsha cuts herself. As she learns how to cope with stress safely, she discovers a secret about herself that makes it impossible to ever cut again.

Issues addressed in this book:

Inter-generational behavioral patterns

Care-giver roles

Cutting and self-harm

Personality development

Five parts of the self

Taking control of the self

Corresponding behaviors

Assimilated Injunctions

Innate nurturing

Attention seeking behavior

Raising self-esteem

Maintaining safe boundaries

Effective communication

Stress management


Achieving true intimacy

I Only Said I Wasn't Hungry

Ellie is bullied about her weight and sees food as her enemy. She learns to resist the voice of anorexia and explores the reasons for her poor self-image.

Issues addressed in this book:

Suicide prevention

Peer pressure

Low self-esteem

Family dynamics

Food as an emotional currency

Society's influence on body shape

Personal control

Auditory hallucinations

Internal conflict

Emotional blackmail

Physical effects of fasting


Force feeding

Externalizing the voice of Anorexia

Cult brainwashing

Name attributions

Gaining trust

Guided imagery

Classical conditioning

Family therapy

Inter-generational decisions

Injunctions and permissions



Personal affirmations

I Only Said I Wanted To Kill Myself, I Didn't Really Mean It

Kenny is angry and hates authority figures, but he forms a relationship with Miss Tina who teaches him how to get his needs met without acting up. He eventually understands why adults have to set rules.

Issues addressed in this book:

Suicide prevention Stepfathers

Changing family dynamics

Sibling bullying

Childhood grief

Losing and building support networks

Attention-seeking behavior



Operant conditioning


Acting out


Behavior modification

Guided imagery

The value of fables

Coping with loss

Coping with nightmares


Meanness and bullying

Parental neglect

Providing safety through parental boundaries

The impact of positive and negative Strokes on development

The impact of a Stroke economy on behavior shaping

Learning how to change 

Enabling a child and avoiding shame

Positive reinforcement

Developing a relationship with step-parents

Behavior and consequences

Love and respect 

I Only Said Leave Me Out Of It

Maizy's parents divorce and she learns that although it hurts when others are unkind or unjust, everyone has a choice as to how to respond. She finds a valued place in her new blended family.

Issues addressed in this book:

Identical twins/nature versus nurture/effects on personality

Development of a conscience

Family scapegoats

Passive aggressiveness


Bribery and manipulation




Coping with step-parents and step-siblings

Staying OK with injustice

Family therapy

Mind games versus true intimacy

Love versus being in love

Positive and negative Strokes

Karpman's Drama Triangle

Active listening skills

Ownership or rejection of step-parents/families

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